I have never experienced this kind of feelings before..

whenever i open my whatsapp,  i will always look at your last seen timing...
hoping that message which i got was from you...

It breaks my heart knowing that you dont want to talk to me. i know very well of what your intentions are but i just cant bring myself to face it....

I have a fragile heart now it feels like it has been shattered into pieces..

I just cannot bring myself to let go...

I find myself looking at your last seen , your facebook and your twitter. Your everything. i miss everything about you.

Now im mentally and physically exhausted but i cant seem to sleep...
FINALLY exams have ended so has year 2. well i am left with one more year (if i pass all modules) hopefully. Now its time for my DRAMAS! ^^
I feel so bored now so i am blogging. haiz. currently working but i never felt that bored. omg.

So broke now but i am working hard to scrimp and save. yes i do have a few hidden cash at home but i dont want to use it.

So im going to malaysia with A next week. Hopefully nth more than that and it'd be fun? ^^ somehow i feel that it has been an 'amazing' few months as i felt that i have grown quite abit in my thinking (okay maybe i think too much).

Yesterday i went to city square mall after my final exams with A, to watch movie etc, and after movie, i forgot the title, yes its some lego movie and we brought snacks in . aft movie, we decided to play arcade, took some neo prints too, haha yeah its been long since i took neo prints. played the 'dancing game' in the arcade, haiz im so lousy and lol. haiz.



Maybe i have hit 'mid-life crisis' im not sure of what i am going to do in the future. sigh.

it has only been 3months plus, there are still so many things i do not know there's one thing which bothered me a alot in the beginning and im sorry to u if i keep mentioning it, well it's got smth to do with sense of security and the actions doesnt gave me a sense of security. so when i heard it, its like a stab to my heart. but its okay, i let it keep stabbing my heart till the day i feel numb and idw to care or mention to u. but its too early to tell if it would last.

gtg byeeeee




i dont know why but somehow i feel everyone has been so much of an disappointment.
I feel like the person who i can rly rely on is just myself.

im also tired of all this.
Yesterday i went to ton with A
before that we went to gardens by the bay, initial plans was to watch a movie, but i think due to the time constraint we didnt.
so went to cityhall, he shop a little den we went to buy some choclates and sweets to go there eat. haha.
then we walk around, headed to gardens by the bay.

settled down, had the snacks , choco and sweets. haha just did a lot of walking and all.
we went to slack at the bridge looking at stars and chatting. before deciding to ton :)

then we headed down the bridge to stroll towards another side, along the lake or smth haha. we sat somewhere, shld be an area near to marina barrage  and slack before heading to the bridge area to sit and slack again haha.

at the area near the bridge..smth smth haha i only can say there's a first time to everything. lol

Skipped alot of parts, cos im lazy to write. haha.

so we headed to mac at cityhall area to have breakfast :)))

and then we went out to slack somewhere again.

Had to head home early, so i took the first train home haha.

Overall , first time ton with :)
feels okay la. nice feeling hahaa.
kk enojoyed ^^

On 17dec 2013 tuesday.


Life has been ok so far, except for the fact bff part.


Life has been kind of mundane lately, yesterday i skipped school. it was the last day but i didnt went. haha too lazy i just wna lie on my bed the whole day and just rot hahaha.

kk fast forward to dinner, supposed to watch movie with EH, xdd but in the end the timing we met was too late so we decided to just eat dinner, yay dinner at thai express, my fav food! got my chendol, happygirl1994 haaaahaaa.




one of my fav :)

reminds me of the times i always eat with my bff (used to be) hahaha.
Right now i am working at mandarin gallery concierge, so im kinda blogging right here. just to document my life and hopefully i will read it in the future.

Just my thoughts la, maybe aft my bffffffffff left me, i felt like i dont want new ppl in my life.
aiya idk . kinda hard to blog out my thoughts with collegaues beside me hahahah. sian.

Later i will be gg jurong , from somerset to meet A lol haha.

Done for today. thought im not exactly very happy right now, even though i feel that u dc. but yay to the holidays ^^

no matter how it painful it feels, time will pass and it will all be fine. i hope. idw to be lingering or clinging onto smth who doesnt want me anymore. life is short.
kk end hereee



Idk what to say anymore.
This is only the beginning , with phone calls sometimes, etc. But i dont feel much yet.
Im afraid too.