Overslept today WTF?
Okay tmr cip walao eh de sch gap pick bu pick pian pian pick sat I today working at nite leh....k go sleep le nite
Argh

I dun understand why shld I make sacrifices for others den when I need any help they dun wan help? Tell u Tis type of frens crap! _|_
Every human being is selfish lah c'mon I shld'nt try to kid myself Tis is for myself for being stupid again and again _|_
Ytd had fever.. 38.9 den took medicine bath den okay le.
Super tired ytd I had to ren all de periods ytd!!! Can't take it sia..
Okay I know my temper is bad so yea
Im so lifeless so fat & ugly
Den again Im quite strong? Cos ytd I sick den can tahan for 1whole day
But when lesson de time I really can't stand it sia
I just can't understand.. All tat happened was in de past when u ppl experience it den u'll know how it feels
Anxiety lonely stress
Argh if only I can use a a eraser to erase the past
I need a new environment, a new start...
Fucked up life _|_
I hate my life so lifeless so fucked up

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Argh! I feel so depressed most of de time.. Anybody help?
Pls?

So stress.. Now I understand why ppl dun wna live anymore


I always get blame by my mum .. Even for piggy's death...
& in sch it's always like that like shit while at work so tiring and all why can't anybody/ anything just give me a break?
Why? Why is my life full of shits?

Whether it's at home or in sch life just sucks
Why?
I miss u...
Looking back at de pics I felt a ting of sadness sigh
Maybe I'm just plain stupid I guess money money money :(
No money alr.. Lucky fri all working but not much leh :/
Better den nth, was tinking I fri u all happy happy weekend coming le can sleep wad abt me? Work.. I still wna go for classes not sch classes obviously..
Oh shit fri coming tmr also coming, a day nearer to o lvls how time flies
I'm old alr :( took height & weight tday surprisingly I'm acceptable! Haha!
Hehehe I'm still fat lah but will work on it (:
I dun even have enough money for myself alr, work also not enough money I wan tuition but I dun have enough money.. i fun wna burden my mum, much less waste her money.. How? How how?!! I dun wan depend on my parents for money den urgh!!!!!!! Why am I so stupid..
Fuck today! Well actually no everyday in coral sec! _|_
Really hate those kinda of people say change den change
Example, when u know tat u dun have "stable" frens to hangout with in sch u tend to jump to group of frens for "refuge", now Tis is was I deem a 360 degree change sigh..
Which is why I hate ppl with motives ? Is like ppl got use to u den use, if not throw? Really hate Tis kinda ppl
Dun judge a book by it's cover (=

Today went out with Qr, went ehub haha saw Ying Xian xD haha den few other ppl horse omg. Lol! Today quite funny pei Qr eat mr chicken rice den aft Tat she pei me eat noodles haha like jump here jump dere, take turn to eat haha
Went town park, blah blah blah den went her house heh charged my phone dere thx uh!
Cos I l8r going work ma if battery flat I die alr lo
Oh ya talking abt work I seriously hate those kinda customers who act like I owe them a living be glad I'm working dere if not I feel like screaming in their face knn
Lol work is as usual do de same stuffs I v sian of it le..
Well if u tink I got work & I'm rich u're v wrong den
It's been almost 2wks.. I miss u
Today in sch okay la

today nvr work cos I v tired ..
Tmr going haiz so lack of $$ now. No dollar no future.
Nvr really studied today haiz but got free cookies thx (:


Struggling with studies now I really regret not studying in sec 3 sigh ive learnt a lesson : must study!!!!!

Xiao zhu<3
xiao Wei!
xiao xing!

Xing xing sleeps just like zhu zhu but no one will ever replace him :(
Hehe I talking abt my guinea pigs!
I'm so lame haha
There's no such thing as eternal relationship or friendship treasure everythin before it's gone cos when u realise it's gone it'll be too late. Haiz just like my pig..
So emo in sch idk why I dun feel like talking.
Today.. Okay I suddenly forgot wad happen today.
Today had poa 2 period den er recess den free period! Two period hehe but rather bored :(
Stress haiz.. My studies like shit teacher teaching de time I was kinda lost cos I damn sleep uh den he going abit too fast my eye damn pain now.. Tired I like going die soon..1 more day of sch den rest haiz
2 more days & it's been two wkd since u left..
I miss u :(
Today met Qr in the morning as usual haha.
Ok I lazy blog alr sia.. Homework alot :(
Sch sucks
Wonder if I'm sad will anybody be dere for me?
To comfort me?
Anybody I can pour my heart out to?
I've nth to do now so blog sigh I'm slacking here whereas the others are probably studying or tuition now?
Sch totally was so boring I've nobody to talk to.
Found out my form teacher us mr osman & de female teacher? Forgot her name
Today went recess with Qr Joyce haha also Abigail LOL
First time I ever see such a thick skin person like u! Seriously busy paiseh one sia rme haha thick skin till wan middle somemore.
There comes assemy the new principle also began talking alot of craps den comes mdm siti another bunch of craps again -.-
Wow times seems to fly by fast sec 5 alr 17 yrs old alr.. I feel so old haiz.

Den got de useless house meeting sib sian sia!
Aft tat go eat with them, feel kinda troubled dun mind me
Feeling so sleepy now..
Dun worry totally understand tat feeling!
So tired now../
So sleepy ..
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我很想你..

Sigh today marks the first wk without u.. I miss u so much, reminscing abt those happy times our bond is so strong.
No other guinea pig will be like u..
Edit l8r? Lazy blog now sia
If u think that I'm this sort of person go ahead. So be it
Came back from work not long ago, 6th day without u, actually shld be 7day since it's already past midnight haha everyone's talking about their new year resolution perhaps I shall think of mine too (:
Hmm.. I'm not sure maybe just study hard? Tale good care of my pigs (: (:
I'll nvr forget u.. Haiz ur de first pig that I ever love so much & bonded with <3
Really miss de times with u ..

Initially 2010 turns put to be an okay yr but after ur death it isn't at all for de first few days I had to face de pain of losing u everytime I wake up. Sigh every morning I'll be sad once again..
I feel that I really is the type pf person that get hurt v easily cos even my pet's death can sadden me so much. I think if anything else more serious happens it'll be worse..

Now I'm just a loser maybe years l8r thing maybe different but I think it'll be highly unlikely due to my laziness haha

Sch is starting :( I feel so left out & out of place in sch no one will care abt me dere.. No one I'm just a useless piece of shit inside
My studies is also shit , shitty results I get. Plus in sch everyday will be another day of torture..
I used to enjoy sch but not anymore cos sch just sucks.
I've always had issues with myself I'm just too ugly & my character is just so quiet
I couldnt help but tink if I'm not fat & ugly would things have been different? I doubt so too , cos I'm hwee mein, shit life I have here ; poor fat & ugly studies like shit
U might think ya dere are ppl out dere worst off than me I agree but once u go through this u'll know how it feels like.

Words hurt like a knife haven't u guys out dere tink, even fat & ugly ppl have feelings too, maybe 1day u'll understand how we feel..