What brings me here..... LOL


Sigh i am beginning to have doubts about my own charactor, maybe my charactor really sucks..
i dunno how to make friends, how to talk more, be more outgoing. Best of all i dunno how to be sociable..



so in the end i suck.





Perhaps scheming people/Hypocrites really are more successful in life, more friends more likeable.

maybe i shld learn a trick from her, to be more cunning. hmmm



Just kidding! LOL

Okay tell ya, be on the alert for fake friends, ya in good times they will go through everything with you, celebrate your bday, buy lots of expensive things for you. You will be happy at first, really really happy.
But in tough times, hmmmm,
i've doubts. so yeah


Be careful of wat friends u choose, ahh wadever to you i may not have the rights to say all this, but trust me, i've been through it all..

From getting badmouth by my own closest group of friends, to getting ostracised(left out), yeah i may did smth wrong i admit but i've my reasons.

From getting left out by my own group of friends, for example, whenever they go out they will nvr ask me along..i felt so hurt...Till now i wonder wad motive they have when they want to go out with me?

Back then, i did'nt know how to react to all these, at times i just wished to end it all...
i nearly did, getting all the pills ready, i was ready to die, but smth turned it all around, perhaps i didnt have they courage to do it?

I also resorted to slashing myself, often just to take away the pain.

Looking back, i find these FUCKING CHILDISH AND STUPID, all these...for friends?
SO STUPID, brainless...

I never thought that the person i treated as my best friend will ignore me. All these woke me up to reality, so choose your friends wisely, I never thought i would get treated this way.

Ahh these are all in past, if i had a choice i would erase it, LIKE EWWWWWWW at my actions!


LOLOL